04 January 2009

橄欖樹




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在結束前(大概可能十分鐘),頌缽突然就像一個我抓不起來很重的東西,使我非得把它重心移下;或是缽被很大磁場吸引到地面上。頌缽把帶我到地上,本來站著的我,這時候彎著腰,好讓頌缽能夠落在地上。到後來我的身體只好隨著頌缽的意願,非得坐在地上磨缽不可。後來回想起這種感覺就像有一次到勝安宮的神柱靜坐的狀況一樣,柱子突然之間就像有很大的磁力一樣,我的頭部不自覺往柱子的方向吸引著,因為我是在坐著,所以頭部最靠近柱子的方式,身體能夠做出的最大的極限就是:我的上半身往正在單盤坐的雙腳趨近,臉部面對盤坐雙腳前地面,頭頂向著柱子。我當時其實有嘗試把身體扳回來,希望恢復一般在靜坐的姿勢。其實如果要用多一點意志是可以做得到的,但是自覺的意志只要稍微放鬆,頭部又被柱子吸引過去。我當時抱著好奇的心,看這樣的狀況能維持多久。回到護理之家的現場,我就是左手靠在地上,托著頌缽,磨著缽直到MH還是NH師父輕輕敲著高音的小缽,暗示我們時間已經到了。

在頌缽后我告訴MH和HY在又回到母娘的懷抱,他們應該不知道這是什麼意思。我的意思是說,我又再一次從意識放開我的身體,讓身體自由移動。過去三個星期的活動,從曼陀羅,到太極導引,到類似葛羅托斯基的身體工作。我知道對於我來說,太多的暗示語和指導語,這些訊息量對於我都是太多。太多的期待與想像,對於我都太多了。我個人需要的「削減」(via negative),減少減少再減少。讓意識退場,讓身體自由。尤其是對照老師在宗教轉化課對於身體性提出的論點,更使到我對於身體的無意識的狀態感到肯定。

結束活動後,看看住民的神態,對照我們第一次來辦活動的狀況。我突然感覺,灝翔老師當天引導我們發出聲音,然後靜止的那一刻,這樣的狀況發生在我們的活動中,我們大家竟然常常視而不見……

HR在結束後,告訴我們小熊維尼已經出院回來了,但是狀況不好,她因此感到傷心。今天前些時候在教室看到師父,因為QT要回高雄,師父說QT是要去流浪,我說:有誰不是在流浪,我們都在流浪。後來跟SY師姊報告維尼的狀況時,跟她分享:病痛的身體帶著我們在修行,正如我們在無意識的身體在修行。我想我們的分別是:病痛的人在──修──苦──行……。突然腦子裡想起一首歌曲,就點播給大家:

橄欖樹
作詞:三毛 / 作曲:李泰祥/ 原唱:齊豫

不要問我從哪裡來 我的故鄉在遠方
為什麼流浪 流浪遠方 流浪
為了天空飛翔的小鳥 為了山間輕流的小溪
還有還有 為了夢中的橄欖樹橄欖樹
不要問我從哪裡來 我的故鄉在遠方
為什麼流浪 為什麼流浪 遠方
為了我 夢中的橄欖樹

24 comments:

  1. 選擇孫燕姿的版本除了因為MV比較美以外,相對於齊豫的通透徹悟歌聲,燕姿還有點在找尋答案的迷惑味道,編曲也相對有迷惘和外太空宇宙的味道。我想,歌聲比較符合歌詞歌曲的意境外,這種不一樣的詮釋使到歌曲有另外的感覺。大家比較比較吧...

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  2. 这首歌对我来说是特别的。几乎是我这辈子第一首会唱的歌,当时2岁,满天满街都是这首歌在飞扬。

    记得有一天我问爸爸:“爸爸,什么是“远方”?”

    忘记了爸爸怎么解释,只记得我始终无法理解“远方”。。。。。

    齊豫的《橄榄树》记忆太深刻

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  3. 這首歌是八十年代初期居住在西歐的印支半島華裔難民經常唱的歌曲...
    他們都唱得很哀怨和感人!

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  4. 我几次试着接受孙燕姿的版本,但还是喜欢齐豫的。但不会排斥孙燕姿新式的。 不同心情听不同版本会较轻松。

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  5. 對呀,青菜蘿蔔各有所好。

    我其實也喜歡齐豫唱這首歌,她的是屬於已經知道什麼是“遠方”的,或者可能是已經不流浪的天使。三毛是自殺身亡的,所以我覺得她在死前其實還在尋找人生的答案。我覺得孫燕姿有些迷惘的歌聲和編曲,跟三毛人生際遇是蠻配合的。說起來,我當年還是三毛迷咧..

    如果你不排斥佛教歌曲,這首齐豫唱的“心經”也蠻好聽的。

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  6. 嗯,流浪真的很苦...華人相對於西方人比較有想回家的思念。你覺得會嗎?

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  7. 謝謝留言。你孩子現在有沒有問你這個問題啊?你的部落格的是你两個可愛的孩子吧?

    看起來這首給很多人留下很多回憶。

    其實我覺得我們一輩子會一直在眺望著“遠方”......

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  8. 因为我主观,我喜欢齐豫。

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  9. 谢谢。之前有听过。 不是佛教,不是天主教; 但没有排斥。这个youtube clip不能启动。

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  10. 那时听到有这首歌的时候应该很小。根本不懂什么是歌星,明星那种。所以也不懂是齐豫唱的。所以也不会什么歌词背景什么的。只记得以前一直想要知道什么是‘橄榄树’,是树还是果子。。哈哈。然后好像会想多一点的时候,就一直想到底橄榄树跟‘从那里来’,跟‘远方’,跟什么‘故乡’有什么牵连。。。
    我自己,听歌有点问题。我记得旋律多过词。所以很多歌我没有兴趣去知道歌名。从小就只知道哼旋律。

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  11. 主觀也好啊。我可能不主觀,但是我也喜歡齊豫...

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  12. 我已經換了,可以嗎?這首《心經》是香港明星以粵語主唱的,不知道是為什麼事件製作?我覺得製作得蠻好的。

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  13. I think shouldn't be your uploading problem. It's due to my firefox or IE problem. I will use different way to view :) This is not the first time though.

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  14. How's your research in music affection on patient? Any constructive discoveries so far? I'm curious especially your exploration in Chinese music and songs, which is different from my previous 'don't know how' as we as a student has to adapt to their cultural background, which is not part of our root (although our 'root' isn't that clear though..haha).

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  15. haha... we r not focusing on Chinese music actually. We just using singing bowl as i always mentioned in my blog. Those video i attached and comment i made here is jus my interest.

    My professoe's research focusing more on how to care a patient using varies ways. I think mine will be focusing on volunteer and not necessary related to the singing bowl.

    So far prof think that when we play the singing bowl, we actually create a dimension that is between the singing bowl player n the listener. The affection of the sound is happening in this dimension. He is still discovering how this dimension works. It is not a music or physics kind of subject but more like philo-psychology (哲學心理學).

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  16. Taking care of patient using music is a very popular type of research and always have the room for improvement.
    Yes, you always mentioned about the singing bowl. I have never seen it personally although you've introduced to us in Multiply before by directing us to view some video clips. Yes, it's not about the bowl itself, I think it's more like a medium between the player and the listener. The medium itself creating sound, and the 'one way street' from the player if he/she is able to inject 'spices' into its sound creation, and then transferring to the listener, then what is accepting by the listener will not be only the sound itself. Sound can be seen as 'rhyme' or 'pollution', it's still depend on how the player creates it. By imagining a scene of having a singing bowl, a player and a patient or patients, I can feel that good sound is created through the heart of a player, then through the medium(air), by 'injecting' various rhythmic, patterns, beats, hitting and etc and being transformed into another kind of satisfaction to the listener(patient). Hmm, but I think 'one way street' isn't the ultimate goal right? Things have to be restructured through the response or feedback that the player receive from the listener through observation and feeling..
    hehehehe...I'm dreaming again :)

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  17. i don think the plain sound of singing bowl is considered as music cos it does not hav melody. but i think singing bowl may be seen as percussion. i think it is still more basic then music. also we do not hav fanciful beats when playing the bowl so far. we hav tried some these few weeks n r still observing. see the blog below for my other comment.,
    http://clang13.multiply.com/journal/item/89

    i think u r quite clear wat we r doing. thanks for ur feedback n observation. tts wat i need. keep commenting if u hav any.

    btw, i will rather use the word "dimesion" then "medium".

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  18. I think I'm not clear with what you all doing. I just say how I feel nia.
    Percussion doesn't have tune; somehow I consider it as 'music' if you create rhythmic patterns using musical percussion where melody is finally created.
    Hmm..in my mind, 'dimension' is a kind of wider coverage, which is the effect of sound creation through the hitting of the bowl, through to the recipient; whereas medium is the 'thing', the 'bowl' thing act as a medium, producing sound and finally transmit and cover the whole 'dimension'. Yea, I did mention 'medium' twice in different situation. Sorry for that confusion.
    I think what I am thinking is kind of fancy stuff cos all the while I only tried to 'transmit' happy fancy 'hottest' music to students and kids. I never try in your situation, which is kind of therapeutic.

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  19. i should say u hav a same "track" as us knowing where we r going. Is this better? hehehe...

    as for the medium n dimension, i think we r focusing more on the latter.

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  20. my my opinion transmiting happy fancy 'hottest' music is important too. cheers...

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  21. 為慶祝佛陀降生慈悲度化眾生,及紀念香港實施佛誕公眾假期十週年 ,特以喜悅、輕快旋律,譜入佛法精義,展現佛教音樂另一風格。

    轉載自Beng Lim's Site
    http://benglim.multiply.com/video/item/7/7

    很少聽到這樣輕快簡單的佛曲...

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  22. 法门梵音:佛指舍利安奉大典印象 --- 王菲 心经 完整版

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